Since I was in my teens, I have not done things the ‘traditional’ way. I have always had a strong leading of the Holy Spirit in my life, and find it very hard to ignore the promptings that I get! This has always caused me to go against the flow of the way things ‘should’ be done.
At the end of 8th grade, I hated school so much that I told my mom I couldn’t/wouldn’t go back! I started home schooling again, as I had been home-schooled 2nd-6th grade. I finished homeschooling from 9th grade until high school graduation.
I met my future husband at 15. He didn’t know it then, but I knew in my spirit he was the one God had for me – try telling someone who is in college that your little teenage self is going to marry him! HA! I didn’t really ever tell him, but I did try to be friends with him.
I graduated high school at the age of 16 and continued working, while developing the relationship with my now husband. I decided not to go to college, because I didn’t want to waste my time obtaining a random degree just to say I had one. I always wanted to be a stay at home mom, and didn’t feel like I was supposed to go to college. I got the most flack I had ever received in my life, from those who loved me and believed that I was making the biggest mistake of my life. I knew in my spirit I was doing the right thing.
I married my husband at 18 years and 2 months (the BEST thing I ever did). Obviously my persistence worked, but mostly, God worked on him too. Once again, I received flack for being ‘too young’, but again, I knew I was doing the right thing.
At the age of 19 or 20 (I can’t remember anymore!), a friend had a baby who was put in the NICU. It was then God showed me His plan for me was to use my compassion as a nurse. Holy cow, a NURSE?! I hated blood, needles, shots, etc. Why God?! I pursued that goal, to the amazement of most who knew me. I graduated nursing school successfully after doing one of the hardest things ever! Nursing school is tough and I failed a class or two, but I continued on, knowing that this was the plan for me. I didn’t know it at the time, but I believe the reason I went to nursing school was to prepare for the unknown objects that lay ahead.
When I got married, I always took a different, healthier approach to feeding us. Some things were a little more unique than others, but I received lots of comments regarding this. Most were playful fun, but at the time, I was a little hurt that people would criticize my healthier lifestyle.
For over a year, we tried to have a child, because we wanted to start our family when I was done with school. Little did we know, it would take IVF and many rounds of hormones, injections, and a few pregnancy issues to have our first child. It was blatantly obvious that nursing school relieved a lot of my fears regarding shots, blood, etc, and made me more aware of medical issues related to pregnancy. I gave birth to my sweet baby boy, who’s now not a baby at the age of 6.
Our son had reflux and colic issues as an infant. The doctor prescribed him some medications ‘only because I trust you as a nurse’, which did not leave me comforted! I knew in my spirit that I could not give them to him, so instead of giving him the medications that were prescribed for the issues, I went outside the box and sought chiropractic treatment. I read up the problems that chiropractic can resolve, and felt that was the way I wanted to go. Not only that, but I had found an awesome chiropractor for myself while I was working as a nurse. Hard floors and 12 hour shifts on your feet, with few or no breaks, do bad things to your lower back! He started visits at around 6 weeks, and by 3 months, when the issues typically get worse, our son was better. However, we have continued maintenance visits as a preventative for other issues.
I continued to work as a nurse when he was born, but then we decided our family couldn’t handle the 12 hour shifts and every other weekend of working. I finally became the stay at home mom I had always dreamed of.
After 2 failed frozen embryo transfers, consideration and even pursuing adoption, we decided on revisiting IVF. We both did not feel that was the way God was calling us to go. God provided through ways we never would have imagined, as IVF is extremely costly. Once again, after all those dreaded shots and hormones, we had a successful, healthy twin pregnancy and have two beautiful little girls to love! Even though we had a chunk and a peanut, they were both healthy and came home straight away. However, there were some concerns with the smaller, younger one.
When our youngest daughter, who happened to be the smallest, was in the hospital, the nurses and doctors noticed she had a heart murmur. This is a common thing in newborns as the flaps that allow blood flow through the heart to the body, bypassing the lungs until birth and the first breath, can take a little longer to close. It was during this routine examination that they discovered a ‘spot’ on her lung. This of course led into more testing and various jumps in what part of the body they were seeing this ‘spot’ on. Eventually, it was determined to be a ‘cyst’ on her thymus. The thymus gland lies in front of the heart and is as essential as every other minute part of the body.
Of course, we were referred to Children’s Hospital and a pediatric surgeon. In the midst of beginning that, we were also faced with an abnormal PKU result. PKU testing is a metabolic screening for genetic disorders. One of her tests came back abnormal, so once again we were referred to a specialist.
Long story short, the doctors absolutely freaked us out about this ‘issue’ and we went through several tests, which of course in turn leads to more testing and were even recommended to stop breastfeeding and supplement with formula and other nutrition, which absolutely devastated my personal desires and goals in that regard. There came a point where we no longer wanted to subject our newborn to these tests, so we politely declined the further testing. I believe that there was truly an error in the original testing. Despite the fact that she did not test positive to the genetic issue, they wanted to proceed with more invasive things. No thank you. I choose to believe that the results are the results and God will protect my baby. If something became an issue, we deal with it at that time.
Once that side of things ended, we were again faced with the ‘cyst’ issue. We were originally told that it would go away, not be an issue, etc. After several months, close to her first birthday, we found out that this ‘cyst’ was now considered a ‘tumor’ and that it ‘had to be removed immediately’ and it would involve surgery with many years of follow ups and testing, etc.
“Haven’t I commanded you? Strength! Courage! Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take.” Joshua 1:9, MSG
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9, NKJV
To be continued…..